Mid-lifeing

I think I'm going through my mid life crisis. I'm not chucking my marriage; did that already, but for different reasons. I'm not leaving home to travel the world or join the peace corp, although that does appeal to me. I am looking for a new direction, a new long term endeavor for my second half of life. This "crisis" has not simply come about because of the typical factors of age and phase of life, but more important it's been set off by a life-altering event - my daughter's medical trauma. Seeing and experiencing first hand the fragility of life continually brings to mind, "am I doing enough with my life, am I doing meaningful things, am I making a difference;" and at the risk of sounding like a teenager searching for my identity, "what is this life all about, what is my purpose here?" I might as well be back in the 70's again pondering life. This angst has hit me full force. It's what defines my mid-life crisis.

Welcome to my blog. I am very excited that I actually set this up by myself. I don't even know how to tape a T.V. show onto a video or DVD. I rely on everyone else in my house to do it. Call it laziness, resistance; but I do consider myself slow in the field of technology. I've thought about the idea of blogging for a while, but was intimidated by the "techy" part of it. After my Wednesday night writing class where three bloggers spoke about their blogs and presented the simple mechanics of setting it up, I was motivated to go for it. So here I am writing my first post (I figure I should write something on the day I set it up so it's not a blank page) after my 20 year old daughter gave me a hug of pride. She knows well my screams of frustration as I went from typing on Word to basic E-mailing to learning how to navigate the internet. We'll see how often I "computer tantrum" as I hopefully evolve into a blogger.

So what will be the content areas of this blog?

• My middle daughter's year long hospitalization
• Keeping oneself strong through a crisis
• Coping with adverstiy
• Miracles
• Turning Why's into How's
• Living your best life